My latest hospital stay has been rather tramatic to put it lightly.

Medical PTSD here I come.

Surgery tommorow! =D

*dances*

In the hospital again, lung filled right back up with shit water..

Preparing myself for re-assimilation back into the collective.

I'm West Philadelphia born and raised, on a playground where I spent most of my days

Just had my chest tube pulled out..MOTHER FUCKER >_0

I've been in the hospital for the past week recovering inside the ICU.

I caught a nasty case of pneumonia that completely surrounded and entraped my right lung in a bubble of puss and fluid which limited my lung capacity and gave me constant fevers.

The doctors have drained a large amount of the fluids from my lung via chest tube but the whole experience of having these procedures done has been agonizing to put it lightly.

I'm still worried since the doctor informed me that even after I recover I'm going to loose some of my lung capacity and there will be scarring.

Getting sick sucks!

Fuck where did I leave my car..

I'm at blizzcon.... OMG am I DRUNK!! =D

Based upon my current and most unfavorable situation I will state that I DID IT FOR THE LULZ

Well my bills are paid and current and I'm mostly supporting myself and doing things on my own at this point despite the fact that I have very little to work with.

But I'm doing it god damnit! =D

You know I will state right now that I don't know why the hell it is that people think in their heads that when it comes to finding a mate, boyfriend, girlfriend ect. that they buy into that notion of "Oh don't worry someone will come along one day" or "You'll find the right person, try not to think about it to much"

This seriously concerns me because not only is this the BIGGEST FUCKING LIE/GUARANTEED TO DOUBLE YOUR MASTURBATION/KEEP YOU LONELY STARVED AND DESPERATE I have ever encountered it harps on the notion that you have no control over who comes into your life and you just end up settling for someone who shows a vague interest in you because you had noone else in your life to begin with!

I honestly believe in my heart that it's a good idea to NOT listen to the complete and utter fucking nonsense of just relying on "Fate" to bring someone to you but instead go AGAINST the "cultural belief" of being passive and just waiting for a mate to magically appear out of nowhere and instead actively search for someone based upon what you would find most compatible with who you are as a person and being. In other words it's a good idea to screen people out as you stomp through the jungles looking for a mate instead of just jumping on someone because they just "happened to come along" which is what that notion is based off of.

You wonder why divorce rates and breakups are so fucking high and we still have people out there who are 40 year old virgins who aren't Catholic priests! I think it may have something to do with those saying's I've mentioned in the opening paragraph.

Just my two cents about it since statements like that really piss me off.

So LJ just turned ten..

FUCK YOU LJ your birthday party SUCKS

So lately I've been busy looking around for amateur models to star in certain ideas for adult films I've been wanting to put into existence.

This is not something new to me either cause I've been wanting to do this for a while but now I am actually working on saving up the revenue to purchase said needed equipment, cameras, digital recorders, models ect. Of course there are going to be other fees associated with such a venue if my films actually do become somewhat popular and manage to make it somewhere beyond the 8 trillion other web pages of vanilla porn that pop up via google. But that is not an issue to me at this point.

I believe it would be a fun experience to experiment with and shooting your first amateur porn film wouldn't really be all that expensive honestly, but would require I learn how to video edit which can be done in due time.

The only question I have for myself is where exactly to start looking for models that don't cost me a whole months pay to hire for a shoot. I see so many web pages plastered with no name adult film performers whom I know aren't getting paid much for their services in the beginning of their career..so I can say that will be more of my target source than anything to start out with.

I'll update more on this if I can achieve some level of success with it.

I always knew Abraham Lincoln was an ASSHOLE

Fuck I feel lonely..

Can't say that's a good thing..nope not one bit!

Dear LJ

I miss my girlfriend

Woof..

Yep, on my job I drive the rape van. =D